The end of an era

Today I gave my World of Warcraft account away to one of my good friends online. It was a tough choice, but being with Alicia this past month made me realize what I have been missing out on. I am excited to get back into the dating world. I do miss Alicia we are meeting on saturday to talk about whatever it is that happened. Oh well I guess I will learn as much as I can and move on. I'm done being angry and sad.

This Christmas when I go down to San Diego I will try to hook up with one of my WoW buddies and get a drink. It's always cool to finally meet people in real life. It's time also to use complete words in my typing.

I'm looking forward to the festivities tonight oh crap i gotta e-mail people directions... cya

The bigger they are the harder they fall.

Last night I may have had one too many pitchers of gin and tonic. Why, you may ask yourself, did i have one too many or even why was I drinking gin and tonics from a pitcher? It was my whirlwind romance, a hot item one minute and nothing the next, my all consuming desire, to being kicked to the curb.

I am really mad at myself as well. Looking back the choices I made could have been better, but my lack of experience didn't really help me avoid some pitfalls. Honestly I am not even sure what the reasons were we did break up. I can only guess it was the things that we had previously disagreed on. I just really wish we could have worked together to solve our problems rather than run from them. I am mad at her too though.Breaking up with someone over text messages is not only cowardly, but also just plain disrespectful. At least have the pelotas to say it to my face. I will freely admit things I fuck up and then move on the least I could get is at least one last face to face.

I'm not really done expressing myself or editing this but i thought i'd throw this up there as a notice at least.

The Lord's day

Another nice day. We got to talk today about religion and what are beliefs are, and how we will deal with that kind of stuff. I am really glad we hashed out some serious stuff today and still like each other a lot. Also Simon came to church today so that was awesome. I'm looking forward to coming up for your party as well B face, but I think we will come up friday night and leave saturday.

You get to see my ugly mug this time!

A day on the town.

So today we went out to breakfast at the ye olde pancake house. After that we headed down to the sat market. We went and saw Ashley and Lane at their different booths and walked around downtown a bit. Then we went back to my house and watched a movie and discovered each others favorite youtube videos. Gotta get up early to make sunday school in the morning.

Holy crap don't get her mad!

The truly righteous man attains life, but he who pursues evil goes to his death.

Pursuing righteous ways is difficult. I had a great talk with Parker and K2 today. We talked about what a man's job is in a relationship and other things of that nature. I feel really good about everything that is happening right now. It's like new life has sprung up inside me. I hope that we make the right choices over the next few weeks as we have been talking a lot about what we wanna accomplish in our relationship and where we wanna go with it. I have also found a re-invigorated relationship with God as well.
Tonight we went to skinner butte park and walked around the top looking at the city. Then we went to Steelheads and had a few drinks.

Oh How Magnificent the Lord's plan is

So we hit it off pretty well. It feels good to be wanted, finally. How does one express a feeling that one has never had before. I thought I had it all figured out. That my life would be a simple one left to my own devices I would still be sitting at home alone five years from now. I thought God had forgotten me, but this gift just goes to show how feeble and weak I am in my faith. Now comes the task of trying to wade through a different temptation. The desire to speed things up. The desire to FUBAR our chances with the trivial. I think now more than ever I see what we really should desire. To have real human connection that mirrors God's connection to us. He prepares us for perfection just like he prepared her and I over the course of our lives to now be here where we are.
I am just glad she is so forward with her thoughts on things and our desire to remain honorable in our relationship. She is really cool. I'm sorry Brielle but your coolness is starting to be eclipsed. It's hard to explain how she is but I think I will still be discovering her for many more months.

More to come after tomorrow.

On a cloud

I may be posting too soon, but i met someone amazing and we have really hit it off. We are meeting tomorrow for a group/double type date and then going out on thursday alone. I will post updates as we go. Shit now i think i have to let her read this too. Actually I'm glad she will.

I stole this pic off her myspace.